Hysteria: More Than A Word

The dreaded retinologist appointment was fast approaching, and I had been fighting hysteria because I could not bear the thought of seeing him again since he had hurt me (and stuck me twice with the needle) at my last appointment.  I knew I had until Wednesday (February 22) to cancel my appointment, but was agonizing over whether or not I could stay calm enough to talk with anybody about finding another doctor or even cancel my appointment.

I awoke this morning fighting back tears and the depression that kept creeping into my soul like some fog that can’t decide if it’s going to dissipate or blanket everything in its wake!  Once I had a jolly red nose and a stack of tissues from trying to imitate a goose, I dialed my HMO and asked for another retinologist’s name in the Dothan, AL area.  Naturally there were none listed, and I was told to call around and ask the listed ophthalmologists if they were retina specialists.  (So much for customer service!)

Thus began my new hunt for Dr.”?”  I was lucky — maybe even blessed — this morning because the ophthalmologist’s office I phoned has a retina specialist who comes in every Thursday, and a wonderful empathetic customer service receptionist.  That wonderful lady must be used to horror  stories from hysterical patients (of which I am now one).  I see my new doctor Thursday morning, and Ms. Empathy said she would even call and cancel my appointment with my old doctor.  And yes, I did have unused tissues left when I hung up the phone.

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9 Responses to Hysteria: More Than A Word

  1. JL Stratton says:

    Good for you, Sandra. You deserve nothing less then the best. And, we all hate to know of your suffering, and, if only in spirit, empathize with your plight.

    The best to you. Thinking of you and hoping the best to you, always.

  2. Bongo says:

    Glad you found another doctor so easily. I hope this one turns out to be just what you’re looking for.

    • sandrabranum says:

      Thanks. My appointment with the new doctor confirmed that (1) the other doctor was good — just had a lousy bedside manner and (2) I need to get tough and prepare for many more shots. WAAAAAAH! (Dr. “New” told me he has patients that have had over 50 shots!) I get my shot from the new doctor March 1 because he wants to get all my records to review. I told him that was fine with me because I can use that extra time to “psych myself up” for Round ?..

  3. Hi Sandra,
    I’m glad you found another doctor, so how are you doing now? You know what I’ve been through, so am catching up on your posts now…wishing you peace and less pain, my friend~

    • sandrabranum says:

      Thanks Lauren. I know I need all the help and positive energy I can get. The last thing the new doctor told me was that he would use a smaller specula and a small needle when I get my shot on March 1. He also said that if that doesn’t work we’ll go to Plan B, but he never said what that was. Ah the suspense…

      • Well, I wish you the best on March 1st and you’ll be in my prayers for as little pain as possible~Let me know how it goes, if you think of it…

      • sandrabranum says:

        My son is accompanying me when I get my shot tomorrow. The appointment is scheduled for 1:45 pm. (I prefer mornings, but se’ la vie!) I’m always braver when he’s with me because mom’s are supposed to protect their youngins. Sure hope he works “His Magic” tomorrow!

      • I do, too…hang in there and hope all goes smoothly for you~keep me posted, too..

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