I started to blog last night, but couldn’t find the words to describe what I was feeling; so I decided to wait and just let my feelings jell or ferment. Strange words, I know, for me to use to explain my feelings, but sometimes that’s exactly what happens to artists, whether painters or writers.
An unexplained feeling rises from somewhere deep in your soul fighting to be acknowledged whether pain, a forgotten memory, or whatever. Sometimes you just have to ignore that feeling until you can put it into words, but what is the catalyst that makes you finally accomplish this?
For me it was sitting down and adding to my 2011 Submission’s List. Tangibly seeing what I’ve done — not necessarily accomplished — has helped my perspective tremendously. And, believe it or not, my submissions have shown me that this year I’m almost even with the “rejects” and “accepts!” That in itself, is a major accomplishment since I’ve really only been brave since I subjected myself to the fear and uncertainty of acting on the stage at the start of 2011. What a rush that was!
Since then my vision has decreased and I now need more light; so it’s doubtful I will ever act on stage again, but I’m still grateful for that time because it has shown me that growing involves risk; just like in life. So My Readers, I challenge you on this glorious Monday before Thanksgiving to be brave and try something different; maybe a little scary and just see where it leads you.